The Ache

My heart aches for love not

shared, words not spoken and

chapters not written.

I have a hunger for places

I have not been and songs

that are yet to be sung.

My life is beautiful and good,

yet my soul yearns to be

with its common flame,

the one that both calms and

stirs me- the one that lifts me

to be my greatness self.

So, I will wander until my soul

stumbles into that safe haven

where I will feel settled and loved.

Maybe there I’ll realize

the one I seek, is me

TO’K ~ 🌹❤️

Thankful for you

I’m thankful for you❤️.

I am thankful for all the beautiful souls in my life.

The ones that lift me up, make me laugh, make me happy and bring me joy.

The ones that reaffirm the health benefits of chocolate or baileys in my coffee to eaze my guilt when I indulge 😊.

The ones that say,”yup it’s hurricane force winds out there and pissing rain ☔️ but I’ll walk around the lake with you, get soaken wet and maybe pneumonia so we can spend some time together.

The ones I share silly secrets with that make us giggle when we get together. The ones that share a history with me and no matter how much time goes by, when we reconnect it’s like no time has past at all.

The ones that have the courage to tell me what I need to hear, not what I want to hear.

The souls I have never met but still feel connected to through our likemindedness and a tether that connects our hearts 💕.

The ones that get my humour and I get theirs and we have fun being weirdos together(no matter how professional we have to be at our day jobs).

The ones that couldn’t care less about the gray hairs and wrinkles that are starting to show up.

The ones that show up in my life when I need them most, just because they “know” I need them in that place and time.

And, the ones that have shown up in the past couple of years since I originally wrote this, you are all a beautiful blessing in this crazy journey we call life.

So, to all the souls that make or have made, my life the amazing adventure that it is 😊~ I give thanks 🙏 to you this weekend.

TO’K~🌹❤️

You will rise

You will rise❤️

I know you’re hurting.

I know you’re disappointed.

I know your heart is torn.

And,

I know you thought that this time, things would be different.

Remember this, you learn more during

life’s challenges than you learn in your moments of glory.

Each stabbing ache, each crushing disappointment, each heartbreak

and each painful fall from grace,

allows you to rise and take another step towards where your beautiful soul is supposed to be.

Trust in the Journey

TO’K ~ 🌹❤️

Stop worrying so much, about so little.

Beautiful friend.

Stop worrying so much, about so little.

Don’t worry about the ones that left you behind, be grateful for those that are still by your side.

Don’t worry about promises not kept or plans that didn’t work out. They weren’t supposed to, they weren’t meant for you.

We’re all magical, messy, mixed up souls in progress.

If yesterday didn’t go exactly as you hoped, today the slate is clean, you get to start over.

So, my beautiful friend, stop worrying so much, about so little.

Everything is unfolding as it should.

Be gentle with yourself today and every day.

TO’K~ 🌹❤️

My hope for you

One day I hope you arrive at a place where it all makes sense.

Where every heartache, every loss, every mis-adventure, the chaos, the confusion, the highs and the lows, are all understood.

A place where you can embrace your journey and realize each step was leading you to exactly where you are.

That you have an epic Ah-ha moment and say

“Wow, it all makes sense now.”

And because of this realization you are wiser, kinder, more compassionate, a little gentler on the world and that your heart is settled knowing your soul is finally at home.

That’s my hope for you.

TO’K ~ 🌹❤️

Turn your chaos into something beautiful🌹

For centuries,

Not all, but some

of the most

beautiful words, music

colourful works of art,

poetic expression and

inspirational wisdom,

has been born through

deep sadness,

hollowing grief,

hearts shattered

into millions of pieces,

and lonely solitude.

Knowing how to take

this chaos and

turn it into something

beautiful and positive

is an art unto itself.

Are beautiful things lurking in the madness of your mind?

TO’K~🌹❤️

Rise

You fall.

You get back up.

You fall again.

You get back up again.

Then, you may realize that it’s the same “thing” pushing you down each time you fall.

That “thing” might be a person, a belief, fear, a pattern of behaviour, an expectation, depression, an addiction.

So, you either eliminate the “thing” that takes you down or you’ll keep falling.

If you can’t eliminate this thing on your own, there is always someone waiting to listen and help you up.

Life has this mysterious way of putting us in the same scenarios until we learn what we’re supposed to learn.

Listen to what the repetition in your life is trying to tell you.

And remember;

Each time we fall, we have an opportunity to rise.

TO’K ~ 🌹❤️